2023 - 38

• I can tell my fitness has increased. I’m less tired when running and I’m stronger when lifting. A friend also said she noticed I’m bulking. Small wins.
• With our acquaintance passing, I feel the same depression that I felt during my dad’s hospitalization creeping back in. It’s tough to shake away the feeling of death. I know things will get better, but everything has lost its color, its taste, its magic - for now.
• I miss my friends back in San Francisco.
• Dove didn’t get selected for the modeling gig but that’s probably for the best. She knows just enough to take direction, but is still too young to sustain that focus. Nevertheless, grateful for the attention and will keep pursuing this line of work for her. Why not?
• Karen has made it a home decor project to install more cabinets and seating. The more permanent our Hong Kong home feels, the more I feel saddened by the fact I won’t see my friends as much. It’s hard to make friends in Hong Kong - which feels more like a high school with social politics more than it feels like an actual place to raise a child. I know living in Asia is for the best, but it does feel the allure of the city is washing away to the realities of my circumstances.